Defy Limitations

Miracles do happen. God really answers people’s prayers and when you expect less, best things can happen. 

I am in the midst of confusion. I have to make a choice.

Here’s the story. I was expecting that I would fail accounting because my score in the final exam was not enough to pull up my final grade. The moment I accepted that I’m never going to make it, I tried to bear in mind that I do not want to take BSMA (BS Management Accounting) and I’m going to shift to another course. *For those who do not know, in our college(AMV-CoA) and according to our new curriculum, students who failed acct1A&B shall not be retained in the BSA(BS Accountancy) program and will be transferred to BSMA program.* So I told myself and God, if I don’t pass accounting, this course is not meant for me. Lately, I’ve been thinking of shifting to Fine Arts major in Advertising Arts. (AA is my 2nd choice of course during the USTET.) If I am going to weigh it, 70% of me wants to shift and 30% does not. I even prayed to God and said that if this course is really not for me, can He please give me the sign; that sign was a grade of 5 in accounting. Then the judgment day came and I became a little afraid of what the result may be. I was afraid that if I passed accounting, I would be more confused. My professor reminded me of what Steve Jobs said, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: ‘If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?’ And whenever the answer has been ‘No’ for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something. That really made an impact on me. I never regretted being in AMV. I learned to love AMV. Even so, every time I ask myself if I really want to be an Accountant, the answer would be YES at times and NO most of time. Then my professor told me, “eh di ask yourself everytime na YES ang sagot mo - WHY do you want to become an accountant? at pag un sagot mo, walang ka konek konek sa accounting profession mismo…eh that should tell you something. ” I don’t even know why do I want to be an Accountant. All I know is that I can be rich with that profession and after I finish BSA,  I want to study again taking up Fine Arts or Architecture. 

When I refreshed the myUSTe portal, I was shocked to see my grades. I even gave it a second look because I was looking for 5 and I didn’t see any. I do not know if I should be happy, but I am still very grateful to God. I asked my professor how did that happen and she said, “o ayan…test daw yan sabi ni god. (close kami?!) hinihingi mo na pumasok ng archi/fine arts. bibigay naman ni god daw…kaso itetest nya kung gano mo kagusto ang fine arts/archi - mamahalin mo pa ba sha kahit na eto na si accounting, prinepresenta na nya sarili nya sayo? dyan mo matetest kung GAANO MO TALAGA GUSTO MAG SHIFT. Kasi isipin mo nga, kung pinagdadasal mo na bumagsak ka dyan, shouldn’t that tell u something? Wag mo antayin na mapwersa kang gawin ang isang bagay. Dapat, magdesisyon ka kasi buhay mo yan”

I started to question God, why me? Others needed the passing grade more than I do and yet he still gave it to me. Just as I have thought before, I became confused. When I finally know the road I’m supposed to take, I suddenly found myself lost because another road has opened. Perhaps this is an opportunity or rather another chance that is given by God. I know I have to do better next sem. I have to make sure that I won’t waste what God has given me. I like accounting, but I don’t know if I can love it. I am still very confused, so I’ll use the whole 2nd sem to think over which road I will take.

I have.. Five months to think. Five months to determine my future. Five months to know who I want to be. Five months to make the right choices. Five months to think of what I really want to do for the rest of my life. 

‎”When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: ‘If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you’ll most certainly be right.’ It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: ‘If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?’ And whenever the answer has been ‘No’ for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

“Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure — these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.”

- Steven Paul Jobs, 1955-2011

(Source: alamuba)